I'm Getting Married!!!

So, I decided to blog. It seems the thing to do these days and I have NO idea who will read this or who would want to read this.....but here goes!

Yes, I am really doing this! In 26 days, on March 13th, I will walk down steps, then an aisle, stand under a chuppah and marry Dr. Jeff Donahue. I will become his wife, his partner, his trusted team mate in life and he will be my husband. WOW!! HUSBAND!! This is so foreign to me and yet, I have longed for this day for many years. I'm in my late 40's and have not been married before.

Jeff and I met on match.com on January 5, 2008. My sister got fed up with all the schmucks I was dating and found Jeff on match.com for me. I looked at his profile, but he could not see me looking at him since I was on my sister's account. The next day, very synchronistically, he e-mailed me on my account. Interesting...huh?

So, here I am, two years later only 26 days away from marrying this amazing man! I'm nervous, excited and sad all at once. Sad? you ask. Although I am beyond happy with Jeff, we both lost our parents in the last 6 months. My mother, business partner, best friend, fabulous advice giver, spiritual mentor, dropped her body in June. Ariel Wolfe. This is so hard without her. Sometimes the sadness leaves me breathless. I miss her.....beyond words. I cannot believe she isn't here experiencing this with me....and if one more person tells me that "she is here, she is always with you"...I'm going to scream!!! I miss her!! It's not the same on this planet without her!!

I guess this is not a very uplifting post, but it's what I felt like writing about. Isn't that what blogging is about?? I am finally getting married and I want my mom here. I know, that sounds like a little kid stomping her feet and screaming..."I want my MOMMY!!" Well, I do! This is just as much her celebration as it is mine. She counseled me through so many dysfunctional relationships, and wrapped me in her arms as I cried longing for a life partner. This is for her as much as it is for me.

I love you mom!

Stay tuned for what tomorrow may bring......hopefully a happier post.